As 2017 came to a close on I began to notice I had been running on fumes. It never is one simple thing. It had been building for a while. I knew change had to come our way. That is why I love that these words from Revelation will not escape my heart right now.
“Behold, I am making all things new…”
Long story short I stepped away from the church I was employed at.
I have been around that church since October of 2000. I left for a few years to grow and work with 2 other amazing organizations, but I came back for the opportunity to share God’s word and my life with the people who served there. They have been family to my family and I for a very long time. I am grateful for the time I spent there and I do feel like I accomplished a lot. As difficult as this decision was I have this resounding peace and relief knowing I was doing the right thing.
For the first time in a very long time, I will not be working full time for a church. I hate to say it, but I had been holding on to my position and security for dear life. It was the moment I let go of it God showed me what I knew all along, I was in His hands.
Things are going to be changing for my family and I. I worked from home and had the kids with me the majority of the time. This change is going to be hard on them, but even harder on me. I have turned into a big softy and I will miss these crazy little blessings. That being said I am also looking forward getting out of the house and working an 8-5. Please pray for this house as we adjust.
I have been pretty comfortable for a while. Though, I can honestly say I am very excited that new things are happening to me in 2018.
I have been told by wise men that hardships like what all happened in 2017 often become those life-defining moments that I will look back on. I don’t want to lie to you and say I handled this past year with a smile. That is not true! I complained a lot. I was real angry. I checked out. I really don’t like the way I handled a lot of this stress. I don’t like what I saw in myself. I have always pictured myself being able to handle these moments like these wonderful men and women around me I look up to, but I didn’t.
I am ready to let God change me. I am ready for his new. I want it to be the start of not just new circumstances, but a new level of my faith. I want to let this newness invade all aspects of me.
I want to leave you with the whole scripture from Revelation. It is an encouraging one. If you are running on empty I hope you can read it and see there is a promise for you. A promise bigger than just these present circumstances. The promise from the Alpha and Omega. The promise that you are in the hands of the one on the throne. The promise that you are a Child of God.
And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Behold, the dwelling place of God is with man. He will dwell with them, and they will be his people, and God himself will be with them as their God. He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.” And he who was seated on the throne said, “Behold, I am making all things new.” Also he said, “Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.” And he said to me, “It is done! I am the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end. To the thirsty I will give from the spring of the water of life without payment. The one who conquers will have this heritage, and I will be his God and he will be my son.
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